What better way to honor her memory than with one of her stories? This is my humble translation of perhaps her most famous. Enjoy.
Sin of Omission
Ana María Matute
His mother, who had been all that was left him, died when he
was thirteen. When he became an orphan it had already been at least three years
since he’d last gone to school, because he had to make a living here and there,
wherever he could. His only relative was his mother’s cousin, called Emeterio
Ruiz Heredia. Emeterio was the mayor and had a two-story house on the town
square, round and reddish under the August sun. Emeterio had two hundred head
of cattle grazing along the slopes of Sagrado, and a beautiful daughter nearing
twenty, brunette, robust, laughing and a bit dim-witted. His wife, thin and as
hard a black poplar, did not speak gently and knew how to take charge. Emeterio
Ruiz hadn’t gotten along well with that distant cousin, but he helped the widow
out of a sense of obligation by finding her odd jobs. Then, although the mayor
took the son in once he was an orphan, with no money or job, he did not look on
him with sympathy, and everyone else in the house felt the same way.
The first night Lope slept at Emeterio’s house, it was under
the grain loft. They gave him dinner and a glass of wine. The next day, while
Ementerio was tucking in his shirt and the sun had barely risen to the
roosters’ crowing, he called down the stairs, startling the chickens that had
been sleeping on the risers.
“Lope!”
Lope came over barefoot with sleep in his eyes. He wasn’t
very big for thirteen but he had a head that looked even bigger for being
close-shaven.
“You’re going to be Sagrado’s shepherd.”
Lope found his boots and put them on. In the kitchen, the
daughter, Francisca, had made potatoes with paprika. Lope wolfed them down, his
aluminum spoon dripping with every bite.
“You know how it’s done. I think you walked the hills of
Santa Áurea with Aurelio Bernal’s goats.”
“Yes, sir.”
“You won’t go by yourself. Roque the Medium shepherds around
there, too. You’ll go together.”
“Yes, sir.”
Francisca put a loaf of bread in his knapsack, along with a
small aluminum flask, goat fat, and cured meat.
“Get going,” said Emeterio Ruiz Heredia.
Lope looked at him. Lope had round black eyes that shone.
“What are you looking at? Go on!”
Lope left, knapsack on his shoulders. He picked up the
crook, thick and shiny with use, that he kept leaning against the wall like a
dog.
He was climbing Sagrado’s hill when Don Lorenzo, the teacher,
saw him. That afternoon, in the tavern, Don Lorenzo lit a cigarette with
Emeterio, who was throwing back a glass of anisette.
“I saw Lope,” he said. “He was heading up Sagrado Hill. Such a
shame.”
“Yes,” said Emeterio, wiping his lips with the back of his hand.
“He’s a shepherd. He already knows he has to earn his own living. Life is hard.
That poor bastard Pericote didn’t even leave him a wall to lean on or a place
to drop dead.”
“The bad thing,” said Don Lorenzo, scratching an ear with a long
yellow nail, “is that the kid could be something. If he had the means, someone
could make something out of him. He’s smart, very smart. At school…”
Emeterio cut him off with his hand in front of his eyes. “Yes,
yes. I’m not saying he’s not. But one must earn one’s own living. Life gets
worse with every passing day.”
He ordered another glass of anisette. The teacher nodded in
agreement.
Lope arrived at Sagrado and found Roque the Medium by calling
for him. Roque was a bit slow and had been Emeterio’s shepherd for about 15
years. He was almost 50 and barely ever spoke. They slept in the same mud hut,
under the oaks, taking advantage of the shelter under the branches. They could
only fit into the hut bending over and they had to go in on all fours, half
crawling, but it was cool in the summer and warm enough in the winter.
Summer went by. Then autumn and winter. The shepherds didn’t go
to town except on festival days. Every two weeks, a young lad brought up
“rations”: bread, jerky, lard, garlic. Sometimes, a wine pouch. The summits of
Sagrado were beautiful, profound blue, terrible, blinding. The sun, high and
round, like an unmoving eye, reigned over the land. In the early morning fog,
when he couldn’t hear the buzzing of flies or any rustling, Lope would wake up
with the mud roof before his eyes. He would stay quiet for a while, feeling the
body of Roque the Medium by his side, like a breathing log. Then, he would
crawl towards the corral. His shouts were lost, useless and grandiose in the
sky, mixed in with runaway stars. Only God knew where they would eventually land.
Like rocks. Like the years. One year. Two. Five.
Once, five years later, Emeterio sent the lad for Lope. He had
the doctor examine Lope, who had grown healthy and strong, like a tree.
“What an oak!” said the doctor, who was new. Lope blushed and
didn’t know what to say.
Francisca had married and had three small sons who were playing
in the town square. A dog approached Lope with its tongue hanging out. Maybe it
remembered him. Then he saw Manuel Enríquez, a schoolmate of his who had always
been behind in his studies. Manuel was wearing a grey suit and a tie. He passed
by Lope and waved.
Francisca commented, “Good career, that one. His father sent him
off to study and now he’s a lawyer.”
When he got to the fountain, Lope saw him again. Suddenly, he
wanted to talk to him. But his shout stayed in his throat like a ball.
“Eh,” he said. Or something like that.
Manuel turned around to look at him and recognized him. It
didn’t seem possible: he knew Lope. He smiled.
“Lope! Hey man, Lope…!”
Who could understand what he was saying? What strange accents
men have, what strange words come out of the dark holes of their mouths! A
thick blood was filling his veins while he listened to Manuel Enríquez.
Manuel opened a flat, silver case filled with the whitest, most
perfect cigarettes Lope had ever seen in his life. Manuel handed one to him,
smiling.
Lope held out his hand. Then he realized how rough, how coarse, it
was. Like a piece of cured meat. His fingers weren’t flexible, they wouldn’t
play along. How strange the other’s hand: a refined hand, with fingers like big
worms, agile, white, flexible. What a hand, wax-colored, with shining, polished
nails. What a strange hand: not even women had hands like that. Lope’s hand
fumbled. At last, he took the cigarette, white and fragile, strange, in his
hard, heavy fingers: useless, absurd, in his fingers. Lope’s blood stopped
between his eyebrows. A blood clot crowded quietly, fermenting between his
eyebrows. He crushed the cigarette with his fingers and turned around. He
couldn’t stay there, not even with Manuelito following him in surprise,
calling, “Lope! Lope!”
Emeterio was sitting on his porch in short sleeves, watching his
grandchildren play. He was smiling at his oldest grandson and resting from work
with a bottle of wine within reach. Lope went directly to Emeterio and saw his
grey eyes, questioning.
“Go on, boy, it’s time you go back to Sagrado.”
In the town plaza there was a square, reddish rock. One of those
rocks as big as melons that the boys take from some fallen-down wall. Slowly,
Lope took it in his hands. Emeterio looked at him comfortably,
with a mild curiosity. His right hand rested between his belt and his stomach.
He didn’t even have time to take it out: a muffled thud, the splattering of his
own blood on his chest, death and surprise, like two sisters, came upon him
just like that.
When they took him away handcuffed, Lope cried. And the women,
howling like wolves, wanted to hit him and followed him with their veils raised
over their heads, outraged.
“My God, the one who took you in. My God, the one who made you a
man. My God, you would have died of hunger if he hadn’t taken you in…”
Lope only cried and said, “Yes, yes, yes…”
